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[Jul. 15th, 2006|01:13 pm] |
Burtha(my car) is dead... i was supposed to be getting a Camaro from robs friend but once again dad can't come through
I dont want to sound spoiled but...why is it whenever my brother needs something he doesnt even hesitate and sends him money.So now im carless :(
Rob told me the other night that he loves me.WHOA!
I think things are a bit mixed up here. I am usually the one who gets needy telling the guy i love him.
I do love rob, more than anything.I've never felt for anyone like i do him. He respects me and loves me for who i am.
This is completely above me.
I wish i could sit back and enjoy this feeling but after you know who i can't help but guard myself.
My mind is just running in circles and all i want to do is fall down and take a breath |
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[Jun. 27th, 2006|10:14 pm] |
Ok so i never update this thing anymore...
I have never been so happy before.
Rob and i started dating ( i know..curveball)
I don't know where it came from, but im happy it did.
He is amazing..i can talk to him about everything,he accepts me for who i am.I'm so comfortable with him and i feel like im in the fucking clouds right now.
DOWNSIDE
the night after we start dating, i have to leave for Jersey.
Its going to be a miserable week.I do want to see my dad and this will probably be the last time i see my great grandma. I'm just afraid of leaving when everything has become so PERFECT.
I have the best friends i could ever need.
I'm just happy |
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[Apr. 13th, 2006|07:34 pm] |
Marilu and i quit our jobs today.Mike was sitting there saying how we don't make enough sales and how he was going to cut us soon.So we walked..have fun with your shitty medical discount fraud.
Looks like i'm heading back to Joanns..sure the money wasn't fantastic but its right across the street and i was happy there.Why i left..? Just another greedy irrational decision.
Its what i live for..oh well,lifes not over |
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[Nov. 27th, 2005|01:50 am] |
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I need to get out of this state.I need mountains and real people whos brain capacity goes beyond what they will be wearing to tonights show.Would this place sink already? |
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[Nov. 25th, 2005|07:51 pm] |
I hate the holidays, why is it this time of year that is supposed to bring families and friends together makes me feel so lonely and like everyone bailing on me all the time.
Things werent supposed to be like this,we said we wouldnt change. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2005|07:57 pm] |
So its my birthday,doesnt feel like it.
Im just waiting for this day to be over. |
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[Nov. 6th, 2005|01:11 am] |
So tonight i went with Jay to the purple lotus and i think i reached my max of 7 shots and im ready to pass out.We drove around for a bit.Went out with mom today and got some new clothes and scrubs (long overdue)
My birthday is in 3 days!!
Pissed at jeff and on the verge of breaking up with josh,actually im past that.What kind of guy calls you once during a hurricane?I've spoken to him like 3 times in 2 weeks.Im sick of being the girl he calls his girlfriend (really obnoxiously i might add)but doesnt want to act like a boyfriend.Its seriously show and im sick of it.Plus who offers you an extra ticket to a concert and then doenst call you the night of the show and claims to not have a ride (even though he already bought the tickets...riight fucking liar)
Jeff can kiss my ass,i guess he thinks im the half witt 13 yr old he once knew.I know about your girlfriend douche bag.
ahh now i know why i flock to gay guys,go figure |
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[Oct. 17th, 2005|07:10 pm] |
Im sick as a dog,my boyfriend is MIA and my sister and i are back to fighting.
Whats wrong with this picture?
I hate Florida |
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[Oct. 15th, 2005|03:06 pm] |
Last night was refreshing.I was supposed to spend the weekend in Boca with ash and jayson but today came home due to the plague ive somehow gotten.So now i get to spend the rest of my weekend with soup and nyquil.joy |
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[Oct. 12th, 2005|09:39 pm] |
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Im a glutton for punishment.
I miss hendersonville.I love florida i really do,but no place will ever be the same or change me as much as NC did.I know i shouldnt,but i miss Sam.She was my best friend and everything went so fast and i took advantage of everyone i had there.Im so bitter about how i was written off by her but i cant help but think
-driving up the parkway singing at the top of our lungs waving at people driving by
-how my tone of voice went from low to high pitched and handicapped everytime we talked
-drive bys
-starbucks
-downtown asheville
-mini mac parties with dani "its tough bein a watermelon these days"
I dont think you'll ever realize how much you changed me and even if we dont talk again i know that i have that.
I want to hate you.I want to tell you how fake you are and how much you hurt me.But for some reason all of the other things flash back.
This place smothers me.I wish i could go back to the day of the apple festival when dani and i were in jackson park with doug and tiffany.I realized that day nothing would ever be the same again.That day everything came together for me,but then everything just fell apart.
I cant help but feeling so insecure. |
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[Oct. 12th, 2005|05:38 am] |
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Brilliant me decided to get up an hour early today..so now with time to kill i figured id update.
Josh and i are doing good,things seem to be getting better but i guess ill see where it goes.Today is PSAT..the only reason im going i wanted my 5 day weekend but thats not happening.
This weekend everyone is going to boca since ash's parents are out of town.That should be fun.
anywho gotta go. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2005|04:57 pm] |
Im most likely getting a car by next month...i found a cute little geo metro and it has ac and a d player..plus it runs so im sold
I get my license in december so the cars going to be illegal til then. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2005|07:53 pm] |
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Im at heathers...her and her mom got into a huge fight..uhh
Well today was okay..slightly boring.Im currently on cloud nine..josh is giving me an extra ticket to the copeland concert.im excited.
He's turning out to be a pretty good guy,i guess ill see how it goes.
I have to go to Simmons animal hospital to see if i can line up a job for the vet assisting thing.I start at PBCC in january for dual enrollment and Mr. Johnson is starting me out with Comp 1 and elementary spanish which i probably can pass without a problem.He said ill only need 1 semester at PBCC after i graduate and ill get my AA.The i can transfer to FAU for veterinary programs of that sort.
I hate that im going to be stuck in this state for so long,but between scholar ships and everything i have no choice.Then after that its back up to asheville.So i get to bug Danu and Katu at their bakery..ahh yes its good having a plan. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2005|06:03 pm] |
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This whole month has been a blur..i miss my sister and i miss the mountains.
I miss being able to breathe without being judged.
Dont get me wrong i love florida and i missed my friends.I just feel like at this point everything i do is wrong.
I sit and get told how fat i am by people i consider friends.I like my friends being honest but they dont need to go to the point of insulting me.
Im going out with josh now..it was just an impulsive thing and after talking to him i know we really have nothing in common.He's a tad obsessive.But now if i break up with him i could explain out my ass and everyone is going to say that i only did it because of my friends told me to.Im just going to tell him i wasnt thinking and i only want to be friends..because at this point i really dont want a boyfriend.Finally its the last thing on my mind.
We got our new house so we're moving in on sunday..tony feel free to come over sometime..we are long over due for a sleep over :)
I talked to john the other day about his "musical break through" i guess you can call it.I love talking to him..i think he's the one person in boynton that understands what im talking about when im rambling on about how much i miss the mountains.
Im so confused and all i want is someone thats "Real" to talk to..dani hurry up and get here.we have more than enough to keep us talking for days. |
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[Aug. 31st, 2005|11:04 am] |
My school up here called today and the homeschooling hasnt gotten in touch with them so they were about to write me off as a drop out.So my mom got pissed and now i wont be doing homeschooling.Im going back to south tech for the Vet Tech program.
I missed south tech and im pretty glad to go back..but i guess the homeschooling was too good to be true for me. |
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[Aug. 25th, 2005|12:19 pm] |
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I dont think ive been this happy since..i cant even remember.
Our house sold and the people signed the papers.We're leaving september 24th back to WPB.
Mom talked to tammy(owner of the old clinic) today and we have our jobs back! We have to look for a new clinic and we get paid while we do that.
Goodbye poverty!
So now we probably wont have to live with my grandparents while we are there.
for once everything is coming back together...im getting my life back |
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[Jul. 29th, 2005|12:33 am] |
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talked to mom tonight about everything.so im coming back to florida next summer.im going to miss this place so much,i dont regret a second of my time here.it brought me closer to dani and surprisingly to people in FL.i met amazing people.im going to miss the parkway,the air,asheville,my sister,and everything else about this place.
all i ever wanted was to go back to Fl but its so smothering.I feel like i already want to get out and im not even there yet.
heather and i are officially done i guess.we tried to make some impossible work.we grew apart.I hate the fact that i hurt her.I didnt realize she was waiting all night for me at the mall.but the fact that she "gave up" on me is messed up.How many times have i let her walk all over me since we've known eachother.Everytime she had a new boyfriend i didnt here from her for months.i practically needed an appointment to see her.
this is tearing me apart..i miss her |
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[Jul. 21st, 2005|07:04 pm] |
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So its been a busy month.
We went to ATL while kati was here.I guess you can say we had the worst case of karma.Car troubles,hotel room issues,and tony's stolen wallet were just a few things added on top of the worst vacation ever.It would have been great if it werent for our streak of very bad luck.6 flags was fun but we had to leave early.
On kati's last day we went to the waffle house at like 4am and danced like there was no tomorrow.I wish there we more times like that.
We hung out with Ashton and Danielle yesterday.It was fun...Ashton and tony made whoopie on the swings.
Grandma and pop-pop are coming to visit so it wont be until the end of august until i can finally breathe.I havent had a moment to my self since june.
I need a shower
i dont feel like moving from my bed for the next 24 hours. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2005|12:29 am] |
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So an update..i got back from FL on the 10th.I brought tony back w/ me and kati and my dad are here now.So things are pretty crazy and most of our time is spent in the car or in asheville.Ive fallen in love with that place.We went on a ghost tour for my sisters b-day and i got to see charlie and the chocolate factory which was wonderful.
I havent got to see much of anyone up here since before i left..but i guess i needed the break from the dramatics of this town.
Danis b-day--we spent the whole day in asheville,we went to the mall,ate don pablos,and before hitting up the ghost tour we watched the drum circle.It was my first time seeing one..but im glad i did..it was fun.
My EBV has been like full force for the past few weeks.I can barely manage to keep my eyes open through out the day and every other minute i have a migraine...or im totally fatigued...not an interesting topic but hey its been part of my week.
Oh yea..Fl was great...i made myself so at home there that i still feel like NC is just a vacation.I hung w/ jay,ash,and steph.And i got to bring sam with me so in all it was a great time.
--aly |
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